Today marked my first Thanksgiving without the kids, a milestone that brought its own set of emotions and reflections. Despite this, the day was punctuated with moments of gratitude and connection. Watching Jupiter perform during the halftime show at the annual Kirkwood/Webster Thanksgiving game was a proud and heartwarming moment.
I also participated in the Kirkwood/Webster Turkey Day Run, a tradition I've cherished. Running alongside friends, I found comfort and camaraderie, reminders that even in times of change, some things remain a constant source of joy.
The day was one of activity and quiet contemplation. I spent hours walking and running, interspersed with moments of rest. My eating habits were different this year, less focused on the feast that typically marks the day. However, this shift felt okay, especially since the boys and I had already celebrated with a Thanksgiving feast last Sunday. It was a joyous occasion, filled with laughter and shared memories.In quieter moments, I found myself deeply reflecting on the transition I'm undergoing. Closing one chapter of my life while uncertain about the next brings a mix of apprehension and hope. There was a time when I could picture my future clearly, but recent events have left a void in that vision. This void, while daunting, is also a space of potential and growth.
Friends have inquired about my plans for the future, particularly regarding the possibility of seeking a new companion. Right now, I feel a sense of peace in taking time for myself, in not rushing into another relationship. The thought of never entering into a similar relationship again doesn’t unsettle me; instead, it offers a sense of freedom and self-reliance.
I've come to realize that the friendships I've nurtured over the years played a crucial role in my journey. They offered me perspectives and support that were instrumental in helping me leave an abusive situation. Without these friendships, I might still be struggling to salvage something that was never meant to be.
This Thanksgiving, more than ever, I found myself reflecting on gratitude. I am immensely thankful for the genuine love and support shown by my friends – a stark contrast to the illusory love I once clung to. Today was less about traditional celebrations and more about acknowledging the real, meaningful connections in my life. It was a day of quiet appreciation for the people who have shown me what true love and friendship look like.
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